today work as runner... new thing to me... i like it... though when clearing tables i got spill smth lar... but nv break anithing... haha!! dats smth good!! lols... hope saturday will b better... aft work transport got 9 peeps... i armin trif gu wawa siewimm auntie lee yan n yizhi!! haha!! i trif n armin was toking to lee yan abt work den aft she got off... we tok abt the past in cartel again... n i'm so so so happie cos i'm the last to get off the transport!! so good lor.. i like... can tok tok tok.. aniways... we tok alot of stuffs!! all the fun we had... n i'm so sorry yizhi n ar gu.. we left u out... paiseh.. haha!! but all those are memories liaoz...
now i think back again... its realli toopid of me of even think of quitting cartel... n its cos of foolish things!! -shakes head- wads happening to me man!! though cartel is different now... but the peeps we had esp the ones hu worked fer a v long time together wif me... is still the same!! i love u all man!! u guys r the one hu kept me going on in cartel... cos i seroiusly still carn abandon u guys!! n thanx wawa fer the tok dat time when we took 5... it realli wake me alot... thankew!! n armin... oways listen to me su ku.... ur words made me think twice... thanx fer everything wawa n armin!! TRIF!!! my working partner... though we oways tok abt work... i njoyed toking abt dat!! and i simply love hitting ur head!! haha!! sry ar.. got hock kee de feng fan liaoz... gu n hock kee!! u guys made kitchen a realli realli fun place to b... i wun ever leave u guys again... sry... JU!! thanx fer toking to me... abt how u feel n everything... u hav done alot... thankew!! dennis!! though u r nt ard at cartel animore... but still... thanx fer ur words.... wad u said is right... xie xie ni... hope to see u real soon... if can.. pls join back cartel... pls...
hmmm... i dun hav confidence in myself... one of us is going to b heart broken aniway... i choose to b the heart broken one... he is far off better than me... xi huan yi ge ren bu dai biao need to hav the person... as long as the person is happi... is xing fu... its enough le... these may sound v lao tao.. v drama... but its realli true i find... i dun wish to see my fren... to b sad to b unhappy to b moodless... its obvoius dat he cares more abt u... in my role... i can b the onli one watching bhind u guy's back... n i still choose to b behind u all... cos i will b watching u... (okay dat sounds wrong...) haha!! i wan to see u smile... luff... n b happy... go fer it... dun make him wait too long... u might lose him... i'm not acting wei da or wad... serious... n its not dat i giv way to him or wad... its jus me... i feel inferior... i dunno y... hmmm... we can still b frens like b4... i noe since dat day... there has been a barrier or a "wall" in between us... its built by me... i will break it no matter wad... but i hope dat u dun build a "wall" which belongs to u... cos i would'nt b able to break it... having u as my fren is my fu qi liaoz... its oso a yuan fen dat we r frens... wad more can i ask for?? saying all these does'nt mean dat i'm giving up.... i jus wan us to b normal... (not say we r abnormal) but in a way dat we dun feel awkward... u noe?? hmm... mayb dats part of life... the more u wan it the more u wun get it... rite?? haha!! so i shall jus let nature takes its course... i shall continue wif my life my work my everything... n u continue ur life too!! remember... there's oways someone out there hu realli cares fer u... everyone does!! haha!! i hope to b like last time kays?? lols...
hmmm... wa... 2.30 liaoz... sianz.. tmr class at 10... till 12 onli!! lalalalalalalala!! haha!! but still... i need slp... i'm tired... lols!! -snores- nites!!!
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